Goodbye old webpage!

Sigh... it does take me a year ++ to really complete my website. I think, this time round is better. will keep on improving the webpage so that it is useful to the cicibabies out there. I just get myself a copy of the page before it is gone forever.

Grateful...

There are times, we are unsatisfied. We always compare 'notes' of  how our friends' family live their life.

We are unsatisfied and finally frustrated when we see that we are not living the life as good as them.

Disappointment and unsatisfaction turned into grudges we held against our spouse.

But but... have we look around us... and be thankful for the situation we're in right now...?


I always remind myself to count the blessing that I have. Be grateful to the little things that my family have done for me... then I realised.....

1) I have a home we called our own.
2) We have 2 healthy kids who love us so much.
3) I have a husband who help with house chores, though not much, but NEVER complaint about how I did/didn't do my chores..
4) on and off we able to go for holiday and short trips
and the list go on and on....

Just if we keep being grateful to what we have, those time we spend together as family, those simple cooking we had... etc etc... we will have less fights and arguments.. because we would not be so mean and calculative or judgmental about how a good husband/wife should behave.

Chef Wannabe!

COOKING .... is never my cup of tea! Really. My mom a great cook. My hubby is a great cook. Both have taste buds that just allow them to differentiate the type of ingredient used, the method cook by tasting the way the meat cook etc etc.....

As for me, I am unable to do so. But after having twins, the cicibabies, I was 'literally' forced to cook for them. Well, God is good, I must say, for giving me many chances to try to cook. So, well, after a year of trying, I did surprise the cicibabies (a few thumb ups)  and hubby with some of my cookings....

I'm creating a blog that share all those easy and yet yummy cooking recipe that even a no-talent cook like me can succeed. :-D

For the mommies out there who can't cook, DON'T GIVE UP! you can be a little chef in your home too....

my recipe site: http://cicibabieschefwannabe.blogspot.com/

The Art of Juggling..

Being a mum in this era is so different from the past where our mums be a mum. There's so many things that we do at the same time as compared to our mums. The 'things' we do don't include cooking, washing... those typical household chores, BUT what i meant includes twitter, facebook, facebook games, sms, skype, instagram, not to mention those time at the spa, hair salon, shopping, movies...... we preoccupied our time more in front of those gadgets.. which our mum don't have in the past.

To them, the most would be just tv series in the telly. that's all.(worst still, we also watch telly like our mums!)

So being a mum in this era to me is very challenging and the art of juggling should be properly done, so that no family members become the casualty in any of the activities carried out. If the art of juggling is not 'balanced' you will end up with a lot of frustrations as you might be rushing all the time, to cope with those activities, or unless you don't care for any of the scarified party at all.

so, how to overcome those exhaustion and frustration you are having right now? take a PAUSE and restructure your life!

Things to ponder today:
1. What is the most important thing you need to do today? Have you accomplished it 'whole-heartedly'?
2. How did your family see you as a mum? did you hear any complaints about how you spend your time?
3. Do you actually love your family?

Family shouldn't be the sacrifice of us being a chic mum!

Starting a new life chapter!

It's been great that i 'm restarting with my life as a 'blogger' after abandoning it for so long. Stay tune!

isolation of the BAD

sometimes, because it is our human nature, we tends to 'filter' and isolate those we think are not suitable or bad friends...

we isolate them because their character, their attitudes are seen as 'shameful'

however, this is not the case in bible.

Jesus came and befriend, held them, love them so that they can be renewed once again. This is a great love.

the book of Corinthians says it all. Paul wrote the book not only to rebuke or give warnings to them, but also to assure them that Jesus loves them much that He is waiting for them and encourage them to let Jesus be the centre of their lives.

Paul does not disown them, does not throw them out because of their bad behaviour, does not fly into a tirade over their irresponsible way.. but takes them by hand, goes over the old ground and directing them....

i guess.. this type of Paul-attitude should be implant and grown into our church, those who wanted to serve as a leader.. in the church.. has to have a heart of compassion... or else... we would not be able to bring back those who are in the midst of chaos..

because.. by then we had abandoned them to their own destructions...

strange habit!

a dark secret had been reviewed!

someone has a habit of talking about people.. (sort of behind somebody's back) but in fact it is very front. (1 meter away) <这样的说法就是论断人！！>

i just can't stand it anymore. the whispering, the criticizing and worsely.. someone called a smoking gal a prostitute!?

how shocking is this huh?

i just wonder, if we kept complaining about people of this world, criticizing about the way people look, dress and do, are we going to show our love for them?

what is the point behind talking like that? that someone said this is to remind ourself not to behave like that, but then i think this action looked down on people and laugh at them, rather than what is claim to be.

this attitude is very congtagious. i worried i might ended up like that too... sigh...

must keep my mind and focus upon Jesus!

safe and sound!

haha.. am back in malaysia.

tired. too hot. culture shock.

but it's nice to be home!! home... hehehehe...

hope i will be able to adapt soon to such life and culture here..

do pray for me..

Overdue Goodbye

i should have said goodbye and leave you 5 years ago but i did not.

i should have had these mixed-uncertain feelings 5 years ago yet i waited until now.

staying here for the first 2 years was an impossible task because of what i am.

never will i regret or struggle or angry because now i have to leave,

but thankful and grateful that i was given so much opportunities and time to be here when i actually don't deserve it at all.

to me, this is all an overdue goodbye that i should have said, 5 years ago.

Goodbye England... Goodbye Birmingham...

Happy Birthday to me

Always have some kind of weired feelings and memories about my birthday...


1) it's after christmas and new year.. so people tends to forget (expect fishfish.. hehe)

2) still never had a birthday party (organised by someone) for me...

...

but still... i am glad i am still alive. i think that makes all the different...

Happy New Year to You

it's just about another 10 minutes before midnight in UK, happy new year to all of you out there.. May your life be blessed, abundantly and may you grow closer to your dreamS!

Happy New Year!

my beloved grandma

you left us on this day, 14 years ago.

i still miss you to this very day.

i still feel sad when i think of you.

i never have a chance to say proper goodbye to you.

you teach me so much: the house keeping, the kaya making, the cooking... and i never have a chance to thank you.

i still remember i sleep at your side, waking up at night to make some warm milk for you, listening to your story about the second world war in Malaysia, listening to how you talk about our well known grandpa.

i miss you so much that i wanted to let you know what i have been through, what i have become. i really wish i can share my every moment with you.

grandma, even though you are not here anymore, still, i dream about you sometimes, think about you.. because you are one of the important, influential person to me.

i will keep you in my heart always and will never forget...

i miss you....

happy birthday

hi dear..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you! may your dreams come true! i am proud of you and feel blessed have you in my life.

thanks for teaching me, comforting me, and taking care of me when i am so not worthy of it. thank you.

i do hope, i will have such chance to take care, to love you for the rest of my life.

may God bless you richly...

the DARK AGES

used to read about how the world or certain empire in the world went through the dark ages or the dark period in the history.

i think as human, we too go through the dark ages of our life sometimes. maybe once, maybe twice, maybe more than two... however, what should we do doing such period of life? angry? despair? hate? blame? self pity?

as for me, i used to do all of that. but now, the dark age has come in my life again. what is my reaction? i hide. in a CAVE.

of course, i feel lonely, i feel isolated in my cold cave. but this is part of my healing process. to adjust, to renew and to wait. i feel grateful, because i still have my God with me, always. even though in my cave. :P

so, please give me some time, because i am going through my dark period and waiting for the cloud to pass, before i see the sunshine again.

well, the dark age is not bad at all, because every time i been through it, i became more mature, more loving and more sensitive to people around me. possibly, this might be the greatest present i ever received before i move into my thirtiest.

can't help it but...

strangely.. you said that we can actually see a person as another thing as they sometimes resemble a certain object, plants or animal..

to me, you look like this cat. timid, cute, fluffy on the outside. but if somebody wanted to harm you, unknowingly, you actually turned into a fierce lion. i guess you does have a very strong defend system. which i totally admire and love about.

when looking at you like this flurry cat, i wanted to care and love you more,
when looking at you like a lion, make me respect and more careful about what i say or do, so that i won't hurt you in the process. (or else i might be torn apart by your teeth!! :P )

just be whatever you are right now. no changes, nothing to improve, because to me, you are purrrfect! :-D

Finally .. the day has come...

17th November 2005. my life is put on hold for so long. this is it. after all the hard work, the tears, the happiness and privilage of working in SynnexUK, i have to go through this day.

whether pass or fail, i'm letting my creator to do what is His will is. even if that's mean i'm gonna waste my life, go through pain and shame.

life is not perfect for me, strangely.. always getting results that i don't like, breakups, failures, breakdown but still, i am trusting my Lord for what had happen in my life. or yet to come. because i know He did it with love, with mercy.

so if anyone out there who read this message of mine. please pray for my viva.

Happiness

Happiness is something you feel inside, the sweetness that twanging all over, even without those great things that might happened in your life. Sometimes.. A normal ordinary day might let you feel .. The happiness within you.

bad things can sometimes be good.. because through bad things we learn how to rely on God more, communicate more and it's all about special time that we learn to forgive and help each other out.

when thing goes wrong, the one we blame is mostly the one we loved most. indirectly, we becoming a hedhog that hurt those who is nearest to us.

I've been busying.. doing what unknown person would do. I cook more, doing house chores more, helping out more.. rather than being a leader, or an ambicious consultant.

thank you Jesus, for giving this valuable opportunity to serve at home, to take care of someone I love dearly.

it's been a week...

well well..

it's been a week since i pass up the BIG thingy.

one word - TIRED!

life been wonderful but yet exciting since then... cos even until now .. i am still busy doing something else... haven't really have time to get bored yet...

hehee...

still, life goes on.. with or without success... i presume. but i'll hold tight to Jesus this time.

thank you all for praying for me and giving me supports during all these time...

wise vs. fool check list

this is all taken from the book of proverb

Wise
1. use knowledge when speak (15:2), to spread knowledge (15:7)
2. ...accept corrections (15:5), listen to advice (19:20)
3. does what is right (15:21)
4. lives gets better n better (15:24)
5. learn from a warning (17:9)
6. are patience, ignore insults (19:11)
7. see danger ahead and avoid it (22:3)

Fool
1. ...hate wisdom n self control (1:7)
2. ...make fun of wisdom n hate knowledge (1:22)
3. ...refused to listen when corrected (1:32),(15:5)
4. ...don't care (1:32)
5. pour out foolishness when speak (15:2)
6. don't want to understand anything, they only want to tell others what they think (18:2)
7. their words start quarrels, make people want to beat them (18:6)
8. ...always fighting (20:3)
9. ...get into troubles (22:3)

Busy like a bee... :-D

it's been a busy month for me. so tired that i don't have time to breathe, so stress that i don't have time to laugh. but yet, it's been a great journey of life because part of this life is coming to an end soon and i'll be moving on to the next stage of my life.

the 30's hehe... the career ... the mature life.

not really sure what is going to change when i enter next phase of life, but still i am glad + relief because Jesus is going to go through this with me.

recently.. the bible reading entered proverbs. can't help noticing the bible separate several type of people classification in this book.

1. wise + fool
2. rich + poor
3. evil + good

and it's kinda interesting to read... becos you will see the obvious differences between them... i'm gonna make a list about them within the next few post. hehe

have a good day today ya!